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Grudge prompt?

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So as I try to get today’s post in before midnight, so that I don’t need to backdate it, I see that I would actually quite like to answer today’s writing prompt. However, I’ve already done this and for some reason you’re unable to answer a prompt once you have posted it on your blog. Now, that would make total sense if they didn’t reuse writing prompts. And I honestly can’t remember what I wrote for this original prompt and would really like to answer it again again. At the very least, I think I should be able to see what I previously wrote to answer the prompt so I would know what I said before. But as it sounds, So as it stands I’m just going to give answers prompt go again.

Quick reminder of a regular disclaimer on this blog. A lot of this post in particular is going to be written by voice to text, it’s not particularly accurate all the time and I don’t really have the energy to closer go over the post to ensure it makes perfect sense. So please do let me know if there are any mistakes you find the only if they affect what the text actually says. I don’t write my black post to be marked.

So the prompt I want to answer simply ask if you are holding a grudge what you were holding about? And that is a hard question to answer then I thought it would be when I just wanted to start this prompt.

I think I will always hold a grudge against WordPress for not letting me answer this prompt twice.

But in all serious, I think I will always hold a grudge against society before excluding me. It makes so much sense when you’re on the outside that no one should be on the outside because you know what it feels like like. It’s hard to listen to society explain away it’s okay that you’re left there. Sometimes I’m just really mad that they don’t rip it down and start all over so that everybody gets a fair shot. Other times I’m mad that I’m the one on the outside that other people get to live the life I will never lead. And not only am I supposed to be okay with that all of the time, if I’m not, it’s my fault for not being positive enough.

It’s the only place I get to be me.

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Why do you blog?

While, I started this blog with the more specific topic of accessibility, it has become more about my life generally. I thought that I started it initially as a place to share inaccessibilities that I experience in my life, starting with this more specific topic, hoping it would keep me writing. I did this specifically as I have tried and failed at blogging for a continued period of time. But for some reason, this blog stuck, and it’s still going.

I think it leant itself towards my life experiences generally and some other bits of writing. And trying to post daily blog posts, though I have had to backdate a few became a clear motivator in keeping me writing. As well as giving me something in the day that felt like my own, and if I’m really honest with myself something that it didn’t feel like my disability prevented me from completing.

My blog has become my space to write about the things I feel in a more free way. And though I don’t feel completely free to share everything openly here, it is one of the places I feel most free on all of the internet.

And now because I haven’t slept, I’m going for a nap. Have a good Saturday.

Potatoes.

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What foods would you like to make?

To be fair I was going to write something a lot more interesting than this, but despite everything going on in my head I’m struggling to put words to screen as it were. So I looked through my drafts and decided to answer this old writing prompt, so potatoes.

I would honestly like to do anything with potatoes. I honestly don’t think there is a bad way you can cook potatoes, they’re h just amazing foods.

In convinced if it wouldn’t kill me I could live off them.

But as you’ll know by now cooking is difficult for me. So while I would like to make some lovely potatoes I can’t, and that’s a bit sad. They’re so good.

How would you cook potatoes?

I could do with doing this more let’s be honest.

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What strategies do you use to maintain your health and well-being?

I’m struggling to focus on this at the moment, it’s almost 5am as I write this so that should be obvious.

While I guess I struggle with this a lot of the time, it’s hard to pinpoint what I do at these time, and if the things I think I do are even for the best.

I think I give myself the time and space to sleep and rest. But maybe that does me more harm than good, maybe it’s just me trying to escape everything and why I’m up at 5am.

Music can be helpful, but can also hurt, as it can trigger memorises of things I’m trying to get away from.

Watching my favourite shows or my comfort shows can be a nice escape, but if I finish a show it can be upsetting for me emotionally. I haven’t really considered properly why this might be.

Writing can help but often I fall into the trap of putting to much pressure on myself to complete a goal, so this stops becoming helpful.

Anything else that I may like to do to help my own wellbeing, I generally need help with. And besides not wanting to be more to burden to those around me, this can also be a trigger for me. A reminder of the things I’m trying to escape from.

I don’t know if this makes sense at all. And I’m even less sure, I might just of wrote it as an escape from going to sleep, which I should really do as I have plans in a few hours. Plans that I now don’t really want to do. I’m so tired but can’t sleep.

But maybe I should take the fact that I felt drawn to writing this prompt, as a sign that I’m getting myself back into writing a little bit. And maybe now I’m putting too much pressure on myself to start writhing again. I don’t know anymore.

Freedom.

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What are the most important things needed to live a good life?

I understand that this can be a complex question, because it depends what you think a good life is, but I guess that’s the point.

Personally I would have to say one of the most important things needed to live a good life, whatever you believe that to be is Freedom. Freedom can look different to everyone. It can be the safety to live independently from others, or the ability to choose what you wear, how you look and where you go when you want.

Essentially I think Freedom is defined as living whatever life you want to live, within the bounds of not causing harm to others obviously.

Everything else I can think of that someone might need to live a good life, all stems from this idea of having the freedom to live the way they want to live.

A good life is a life that makes you happy, a life that doesn’t intentionally hurt others, life doing the things you enjoy.

I know this is a vague answer to the question but I don’t really want to be more specific, as I know that a good life can only really be defined by the person who is living it. The one thing I am clear about is that you do not live a good life if your life involves intentionally hurting others. This is never a good life, just keep to your own good life, and let others live theres.

By my own definitions here I don’t life a good life, I can’t do what I want when I want it because I need help to do it, make of that what you will.

When you need help for a lot of things in life, Freedom is conditional, so in my opinion it’s not really freedom.

I don’t live a bad life, by any stretch. I live the best life I can with the situation that my life has been presented to me. But I struggle sometimes to see it as a good life, by what I truly believe a good life to be.

Well that’s a question.

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If you had to change your name, what would your new name be?

Your name says a lot about who you are I think. And I honestly can’t say what I would change my name to, or if I would at all.

I’ve always liked the name Jamie, though I can’t recall exactly why, it just sounds nice. So maybe that.

I want to write.

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I think I want to write. I can feel the ideas, feel the words. But for some reason I can’t put my pen to paper, even the virtual sense. So I resort what I always resort to at these times, to writing thing about writing.

They say you should write what you feel, and I guess when you experience writers block, writing about writers block makes sense. But I don’t know if I have writers block. I don’t know if I really understand what writers block actually is. And I don’t think trying to understand whether or not I actually have writers block, will help me with the whole writing thing.

Why is it so hard to do the things you really want to do?

It’s the only thing I know that just maybe I’m any good at, why can’t I just do it?

The irony of me being informed after I posted this, that this is my 500th post on this blog is not lost on me.

I’m disabled.

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Language matters. And to some, the word disabled is the wrong word to use.

Some people prefer words like “differently abled” or “different ability”, but I’ll be honest these don’t sit right with me.

To me using the word disabled is simply factual. I am disabled, while there are some things I do differently, there are things I cannot do. And I don’t think this is something I should feel bad about or not acknowledge.

I feel like those who don’t use the word disabled want to change the language to make them feel better about their disability, which is of course their right to do. But I would rather own the language.

There’s nothing wrong with being disabled. It makes you who you are and you deserve to live in the world.

Being differently abled doesn’t make you not disabled, and that’s okay. Disabled is not a bad word, it just is. And I don’t like it when people think it is, it feels like they think I’m wrong for existing and being happy with that.

I don’t really know what else to say about this, without repeating myself. But remember language changes for us, we don’t need to change for language.