Tag: Pressure

More than I should.

On By Katy DalyIn Writing PromptsLeave a comment

What part of your routine do you always try to skip if you can?

Do I even have a routine?

I’m honestly not sure. I like to say I’m organised but I honestly feel like I’m pretending all of the time and I’m not actually that organised.

I would honestly skip anything that requires physical effort, which is pretty much anything when you think about it. That’s the joys of fatigue for you. I’m always tired.

But I try to do as much as I can on the important days, and to be honest I think that’s enough.

Like most things it’s only when I see how well other people can function over me, that I think the way that I function is not enough. But logically I know that means I just need to stop being bothered by what other people do and what they think about what I do.

That I’m held to both standards.

On By Katy DalyIn My Disability Truth, Writing PromptsLeave a comment

Are you holding a grudge? About?

Let me explain.

I’m disabled. But I live in a world where depending who someone is they will hold me to the standard of a non disabled person or a disabled person, sometimes interchangeably.

When people can’t decide whether you should or shouldn’t be treated as a ‘normal’ person, what they expect from you can often contradict.

On one hand they can expect you to get a job. On the other hand making a phone call can be a step to far for there ideas of your abilities.

All of this while remembering that the world is inaccessibility to me in many ways. So just because I want to do something doesn’t mean I can, and that is not my fault.

It can be hard to figure out what you want to achieve, what you should push yourself to try to achieve, and in all honestly just who you are.

We need to stop seeing disabled people as different, as less than non disabled people. The world is hard enough to navigate, without me having to try to decide if I want to try to prove I’m normal or not.