Tag: Guilt

Today was odd.

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In some ways it was fun. I got to watch the new Doctor Who which was so great.

But I also feel a little guilty for today. I was supposed to go and see someone who said I didn’t have to go because it was really hot here. Even though they are the one who said it was okay I still feel guilty for not going. I just really didn’t want to go out today, and it wasn’t completely about the heat though that was part of it.

Sometimes I find it very difficult to leave the house, emotionally. I just really do not want to, and get tired of forcing myself to.

I feel like the house won today, and the relief I felt about not having to go out, also came with guilt. I feel like I should have wanted to go and see them, but I just didn’t.

Anyway, if you saw them, I hope you enjoyed the Nothern Lights, I was asleep. 😂

I thought about it.

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Honestly, I thought about writing this post for today, but I just never got around to it. So I’m admitting straight from the beginning that I’ve backdated this one a little. Sorry.

Honestly today was a great day in many ways and a difficult day in others. Emotions are funny like that.

I dyed my hair, and I really like it. It’s funny how something so simple (in theory) can make you feel so much more like yourself. I say in theory because it’s actually kind of complicated to do when you’re in a wheelchair. But it’s doable, and I love it. It’s well worth it.

But emotionally I struggled a lot today. Part of one of my chairs broke and I ended up texting my OT in the middle of the night about it. Honestly, it made me feel really guilty, as often happens when things break around me. Even if I’m not the one who’s broken them, I have a lot of guilt over the fact I can’t fix them.

I often spiral in the fact I feel like a brake or damage a lot of things. Which is tied to feelings I have of always being in the way, causing problems and making things worse. While logically I know that accidents happen, in practice they just make me feel guilty.

Environment vs Accessibility

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Someone made me feel bad today because something I do for my own health in the most accessible way for me isn’t the best for the environment.

It’s a common argument that we should all be doing what’s best for the environment, and to judge those who appear not to be. And while this is true, we need to remember that this looks different for everyone. And the inaccessibility of the world around us can often make disabled people seem like they don’t care due to what they need to do to live their lives.

This is your reminder not to feel guilty for the things you do which makes a very inaccessible world more accessible to you.

Also remember that those who do the most damage to the environment are greedy and looking for money, not accessibility.