So this morning my clothes had a hole in them, and I didn’t realise until after I had them on. Now I couldn’t ask the carers to change my parents, they would have said no anyway for time related reasons. And I know this so I didn’t ask them.
You don’t get to change your clothes if your me, you don’t get to put new pants on, or a different outfit if there’s something wrong with it. There isn’t time when you need help, for choice, for experimenting with outfits. At least not with the care package that I have.
Maybe this is why I mad myself a uniform. To avoid being stuck in clothes that I don’t like wearing. But today that uniform failed, and I just had to put up with it.
This is why tomorrow I am waiting till after my carers to go to the family party, as it’s my only opportunity to be redressed and somewhat presentable for the situation.
But however they dress me, even if it’s wrong or uncomfortable, I am stuck with it. So wish me luck that I’m dressed as comfortably as I can be tomorrow. It’s already awkward for me to be at family events at inaccessible venues, without being dressed uncomfortable.

