When your clothes are wrong

So this morning my clothes had a hole in them, and I didn’t realise until after I had them on. Now I couldn’t ask the carers to change my parents, they would have said no anyway for time related reasons. And I know this so I didn’t ask them.

You don’t get to change your clothes if your me, you don’t get to put new pants on, or a different outfit if there’s something wrong with it. There isn’t time when you need help, for choice, for experimenting with outfits. At least not with the care package that I have.

Maybe this is why I mad myself a uniform. To avoid being stuck in clothes that I don’t like wearing. But today that uniform failed, and I just had to put up with it.

This is why tomorrow I am waiting till after my carers to go to the family party, as it’s my only opportunity to be redressed and somewhat presentable for the situation.

But however they dress me, even if it’s wrong or uncomfortable, I am stuck with it. So wish me luck that I’m dressed as comfortably as I can be tomorrow. It’s already awkward for me to be at family events at inaccessible venues, without being dressed uncomfortable.

Well this is a question.

What are your two favorite things to wear?

I actually wear the same jumper almost every day, so much so that I have five of them to make sure that I have a clean one. So even if you see me wearing the same outfit just know that it is clean.

Image description: aside on view of myself tilted back in my wheelchair, looking towards the camera. I am wearing a completely black jumper with a large front pocket and black pants. There are two dog leads visible across my body. And a Bella a Caviler King Charles is visible under my feet.

Please excuse the bizarre look on my face in this photo, Imogen, my other dog had just jumped off my knee and surprise me. But this is the best picture I could find my jumper. Most of my pictures are perhaps unsurprisingly of my dogs.

I started off wearing these jumpers two years ago give or take. I bought one while I was out somewhere cold and I really liked it. I found myself favouring wearing it daily and being upset if I couldn’t. It was just so comfortable. To solve this problem I bought multiple of the same jumper.

Honestly not only was wearing this jumper the most comfortable thing I’d found, but I also feel like it took the pressure off me having to decide what to wear daily and how to look a certain way that would be considered presentable.

I honestly hated the question, of what did I want to wear today, almost as much as I hated other people and answering it for me. I want to control but the choice was just too much. So I got rid of the choice maintaining the control. And as such what I suppose could be considered my own uniform was born.

I’m not sure how long I will continue to wear these jumpers for, probably as long as I feel comfortable in them. And I don’t really want to analyse exactly why I’ve made the decision to wear them. it doesn’t hurt anyone to wear these jumpers, and so I don’t think it’s something that needs to be looked at in a lot of detail.

I sort of do this

If you were forced to wear one outfit over and over again, what would it be?

Whether it’s through my own choice or something that I do simply because it is easier due to my disability I don’t know.

Almost day I wear the same jumper, don’t worry I have five of them so they are always clean. I will always wear one of several pairs of black pants that I have. The jumper thing started maybe two years ago, but the pants thing has happened for a lot longer. It is simply easier because I know they fit.