So you may recall my post from late last week exploring (all be it briefly) a night out with my family. At the end of the night, one of the people outside of my immediate family that was present helped to get me into bed.

While they were helping me, it did not bother me as I knew that I needed their help at the time. I even let them have a go in my wheelchair and hoist. Any OTs that stumble across my blog, you did not read that last sentence.

In the days which followed, I began to feel guilty about the way they had to help me, even though they were the one to offer to help me.

Sometimes I wonder if the guilt of needing help will ever leave me alone you know. I don’t think needing help is bad of course, but sometimes the reality of just what I need help with is hard.

However I will still take the help which is an improvement from the complete avoidance, which is where I used to be at with needing help from outside my immediate family. In other words, I would just insist that I didn’t need the help, because of who it was coming from. At least now the guilt comes later, and it doesn’t prevent me from getting the help I need.

Remember you deserve the help you need, no matter how you feel about it. Your feelings can lie to you.