There’s a lot of rough things about being disabled, we all have different and valid experiences, but I’ve realised something that I think is the worse part as I’ve gotten older.

You’re still disabled when everything else happens.

Disability doesn’t go away when the world keeps turning, whether it’s good or bad things, you are still disabled through all of it. Whether someone is in hospital, or they’re going on holiday, you’re still you. Trying to exist in a world that feels like it doesn’t really want you there, and trying to be some part of the person you feel like you are on the inside. It never feels like enough.

But you can’t say that, because then you’re making everything about you, and the nature of your existence means that you do that enough already.

You just have to keep moving, keep trying, and ultimately failing.