I know I’ve written about control before, but a lot of my life feels out of control right now, and the little things are really throwing me.

I just really want to be able to make my own decisions in my life but that’s not something you’re able to do when you’re disabled.

All I really want is not to have strangers in my house, and yet they are, whether I like it or not. I don’t have control of what happens in my own home or life. It’s getting harder and I’m trying to be big about it, because it’s Christmas and in all honesty I have to be the bigger person here. But it’s so hard.

I just want my space. I just want control. I just want not to be disabled in my own space.

Please just ask me. That’s all I’m asking.