So first I want to apologies for my absence. It feels weird to continue life after losing someone close but life continues to go on whether you like it or not, so I’m trying to get back into this.

So the person who I live with is pregnant, and they are looking at moving out. So that leaves me at least eventually when they can find somewhere to live, living alone. And while there is no time scale on when this will happen, I’m still trying to plan for when it will happen. For whatever living independently is going to look like for me.

But living independently for me also means living with a dog, I can’t imagine my life without my babies. But one of my carers is very concerned about my ability to manage and in all honesty it’s getting on my nerves now. I’ve not even started trying and she’s already expecting me to fail because I’m disabled, I just don’t think that’s fair.

Sure it’ll take some working out, but I can do this. And I’ve got time to work it out. The only problem I can see is that she sometimes goes to the bathroom in the kitchen in the night. This is something I can clean up once I’m up, but obviously I won’t be up until the first time the cares have been in the morning. And if it really bothers them they can get stuff ready including water the night before, the bathroom is through the kitchen, so they won’t have to go through the kitchen until I’ve had the chance to clean everything.

I literally cannot think of another issue with having her that I can’t solve.

Any anything that might be a little more difficult is just worth it to have her, to live with her, to have my baby.

I deserve comfort and love. And a chance to live my own version of independence and for me that includes living with a dog. I don’t think that’s unfair, even if she sometimes goes in the house. It’s not like I have no way of cleaning it at all or I’m asking them to do it.

Anyway I have time to sort this. I just wish people would leave me to my business, and at least let me try before they’ve decided I’ve failed.

There’s a lot of change in my life lately, none of which I have been able to have a say in. And it’s very annoying to have people judge how I’m dealing with it all, when I’m just trying to do my best.