Showers are supposed to be relaxing apparently, though they don’t feel that way to me.

Tonight I had to shower and unfortunately I ended up getting injured. That’s not really what most people think of when they have a shower. But it happens and worst of all I didn’t come out of there completely clean. I’m difficult to clean and the situation in which I have to shower makes it difficult. So to be honest I don’t like to do it often. You can see why when you understand that it’s usually a painful process. And that’s not counting nights like tonight where I ended up getting injured.

At most I’m able to shower three times a week, this is what my care package allows. But if I’m being honest even that’s too much for me. I generally only shower once a week, sometimes once every two weeks. Now don’t worry I don’t smell, unless my incontinence has been having fun, because the carers wash me daily. Whether they wash me properly is another problem. But generally it’s not so bad only showering once a week. It keeps me clean enough I think.

All this is to say that doing what’s social expected can be draining physically and emotionally, even when you have complete help to do it. So whatever you can manage is enough.

Ignore anyone else that tells you otherwise, they’re not living your life with your situation and you’re doing your best.

And yes I’m reminding myself of this as well.