This isn’t something I like to talk about, but I guess here is the place that I do that.

Brushing my teeth is always something I’ve struggled with, it’d physically difficult for me to do, but I realised recently that it’s more than that.

Partly to blame I think is the fact that regularly brushing my teeth wasn’t something instilled in me in my childhood. It now feels like something extra in my day to be done, rather than something to be done as part of my day.

But I think the biggest issue if I’m honest is the fact I need help with it. At the very least I need someone to get me the toothbrush, toothpaste and some water. Needing help is strange to me, it’s not as if it’s new, but certain things are difficult for me to ask for help with. Even though I know logically that it shouldn’t be, that I should be used to asking for things that I have to do it so much. But sometimes they just look tired or busy and I don’t want to ask, even though I know I can and I should.

If I could do it myself I think it would be easier to convince myself to do it. But I can’t at that makes it harder, in the physical and emotional sense.

I guess you can’t choose what’s emotionally difficult about life.