Minutes after my carers left this morning I did something I have never done before, which accidentally caused my catheter to become unclamped soaking me in pee. But this had to happen on a day where I am going out tonight so have cancelled my evening call. This means that even though I have Febrezed my clothes, thank you mum for that little trick, I will technically have to be wearing damp clothes for something close to 18 hours.

It had to happen today didn’t it?

I just feel like what could already turn out to be a rubbish day, I’ve got concert tickets but not accessible ones, so they may just turn me away. Has had the worst start that it possible could.

This is why I almost always wear black. It’s not a fashion choice really, but something that hides the fact that things like this happen.

I hate it. All of this. It makes me feel like a child, and I kind of just want to cry about it and go back to bed. But I can’t do that as nothing can really be done about any of this. So if I decide to give up I’ll just be ruining the day for everyone else. So I’ve just got to pretend this didn’t happen, smile and move on.

Today already feels like to much, and I’ve not even been awake an hour.