So my little girl was at the vet today. That went about as well as can be expected.

But the person I live with left the medication she was given in the car of the person who took them to and from the vet. As I’m in bed I can’t go and collect it, and they do not want to do so until the morning.

This massively frustrates me as I want to check the medication now, but as I know it doesn’t logically matter I haven’t said anything to them. I know they would go if I asked them to, but I don’t want to be the one to do that. It doesn’t seem fair to make them do something that isn’t that important just because I can’t do it myself.

But if it were up to me I would go and get the medication now. And I think what’s really bothering me is less the problem but more that I cannot fix it the way that I want to.

I can’t help thinking that if I wasn’t disabled I would be able to solve the problem myself. Even more I would have been able to take her to the vet myself, and I wouldn’t have lost the medication so there wouldn’t be a problem to solve. I think this is tired to how useful I feel as a parent to my pets, if I wasn’t disabled I could just be more use to them, show them my love better.

I know logically this isn’t true. And that this isn’t a really big problem, but it’s the little problems that seem to upset me the most.

I just have to keep reminding myself that tomorrow it won’t be a problem anymore.