Don’t we all?

But this is what I told someone who I saw today, that I haven’t seen in over a year when they asked me what I was doing.

I feel ashamed that I don’t have a job or am no longer studying. Neither of those things are for lack of trying, but I still feel guilty for it. I don’t feel like I have the emotional energy to continue to apply for further study, I tried and failed. I failed because they don’t want me not because I’m not qualified, and I feel like there’s nothing I can do about that. I could reapply for the position, but I’m struggling to believe that I’ll get on it now, so I don’t want to apply.

I was having a good day until this point, until this one thing threw me off. Until it made me feel like I’ve never achieved anything.

But I have done things, harder things than many people would have to do. They just don’t think they’re hard. And I need to remind myself of that.