I’m always to need them. Logically, I know that. But some days it’s really hard.

I’ve posted about my difficulties with carers, and this morning, I had carers complain to me about posting.

I was finally getting the confidence to be honest about my emotions and now I feel like I’m never allowed to do that again.

Sure, social media isn’t the best place to do that. But it’s easier to talk to no one, to be honest when no one is there, but at the same time I want to tell people.

Having carers is hard. Living by other people’s rules is hard. I’d give anything to not need them, to not be disabled, right now.

I’m tired of this.

And despite all of this, they’re going to come to night and touch me because I need them to. I just want to be on my own.

Just because you need something doesn’t mean you like it.