One of the most confusing things about being disabled is the lack of expectations. This world is full of expectations, things we’re supposed to have done by a certain point in our lives that will honestly make no sense to me ever.

But as someone who is visibly disabled, no one expects anything of me, and that would be nice if it wasn’t so humilating. And honestly the fact that I find it humiliating is even more confusing.

I know these stereotypes and pressures are wrong, but it’s a slap in the face when you think I don’t qualify for that wrongness. Which is weird in itself because logically I know wanting to be mistreated in this way doesn’t make sense.

That means everything I do has to come from me and my desire to do it, and I get zero recognition for the extra effort involved in that. As all the recognition I do get is tired up in whatever inspiration porn others decide to create from my existence.