So today I had a visit from someone to find me some kind of different seating to spend some of my time in, as it isn’t good to spend all your time in the same chair. And she suggested w few other adaptations which could benefit my sister in the home.

I feel a little guilty, because while she was focusing on my sister in some areas, I was almost completely focused on myself, and how what is being suggested will also be beneficial to me.

The way I see it it’s more important that this place works for me than it does my sister. As I’m unlikely to ever move, however this option is open to my sister should she choose to take it.

So I am being selfish, I think, a little. But I have to be. Everywhere else inaccessible to me, I have a right to focus on myself first, on where I live being accessible to me. I shouldn’t feel guilty about that, and yet I do.

That said, what’s been proposed will help, both of us. So that’s good. And my sister seems to understand why I’m being selfish in my thought process here which is even better.

I also struggled with the extent to which the conversation discussed what I need from her, but that’s something else that I don’t really want to think about right now.

I’m trying to deal with all this while also organising the rest of my life, the organisation of which is not up to me. As aell as dealing with the few elements of my life that are within my control. So let’s just say there’s a lot going on right now.