Tonight is another shower night that I don’t want but will have to take. In all honesty I don’t want any of my care that I will have tonight.

I’m in one of those moods where I don’t want to be touched, but I know that I’m going to have to be.

Showering when I want is inaccessible to me. Going to bed when I want is inaccessible to me. Being on my own is innaccessible to me.

And while I should be used to all of that, and most days I am. Some days are just hard. Today is one of those days.