This entry is an update on my previous post – Green Green Grass. In which I talk about the state of my garden and trying to get on the local scheme in my area to get it sorted.

I had a response today, to my re-inquiry of the issue from several days ago. Which basically gave me no update. Only that my request had been passed on to the relevant team. Which was the same update I received when I first made the enquiry to get on the scheme months ago.

I’m slightly frustrated that they didn’t give me any new information. But at least I have written proof that they have not forgotten about me I suppose.

I’m torn with what to do with my garden in the meantime honestly. I could probably get a few family members to sort out the garden this once, and trust me it needs doing. But I’m worried if I do that, they somehow may not think I need to be on the scheme if that makes sense.

Having others around you that could help you, can be scary when you need government provided help. It feels like a risk to take a one off, that may cost me something I need. This is something that I also have to be careful with the day to day help I receive from my sister. I have to have just the right amount of help from my sister, to ensure that my council provided care isn’t compromised in any way. Or that no one suggests that I need more care from official sources.

The concern that I could one day be placed in a care home, if the amount of care I need to receive officially costs the council to much, is very real to me. That is to say the care I receive and from where I receive it is a balance to say the least.

The help I receive is always a balance, as it seems like it may end up costing me my independence in some way. I hope that makes sense.

Anyway in terms of the garden, I’m no closer really. But I hope I find out where I stand soon with this.