I’ve been on my own today. For the most part it hasn’t been bad. It’s been quite nice if I’m honest, just me and the dogs. Until I wanted to take the dogs out for there walk, will my sister let me know that you probably wouldn’t be back in time to do this before my carers get here.

I thought I could manage doing it, it’s a struggle but I’ve done it before. And the truth is maybe I could have done it, if my world was set up in such a way that taking them for a walk today was accessible to me.

But I didn’t know that I would be taking them out alone, I didn’t plan ahead to ensure that it was. I did plan ahead to feed them on my own. I did plan ahead of to make sure I had water on my own. But walking them was not on the agenda.

And while I do feel a little guilty, I know logically that one day without a walk, is it going to hurt them. I also have to remind myself that is not my fault that I did not specifically plan things I did not know what happened. I cannot see the future. But as a disabled person not being able to see the future can often leave me stuck. I have to try and see the future, on days when I’m alone, in order to be independent. Today I failed to do that.

I’m currently trying to remind myself that it’s not my fault but I’m not superhuman.

So I guess this one is actually asking anyone who is reading this to do do those around you a favour. Give them as much information about a situation as you can. Give them this much pre warning. Not only does this help everyone as we all feel more prepared for things we know are going to have them. But if you know someone who happens to need to see the future to live their lives, you may be helping them more than you realise.